And then you know...

When I starting telling my girlfriends that I was pregnant one of the most common things I kept hearing was how I was about the be so overwhelmed with love. That I would soon not be able to imagine my life without this little one.*

I kept hearing about how I would have this instant gush of love for this baby. How, I was about to meet the love of my life.

And, you know what? It didn't really happen like that. I mean, I did, but not in the overwhelming way. I loved her sure, but it wasn't really until she was a couple of months old and had begun smiling and interacting with us that I was smitten.(I'm sure it has everything to do with the circumstances and events of her actual birth, to be shared in another story.)

And, you know, recently, I was totally gobsmacked by how amazing she is as a person. Not as a baby, but a tiny person.

Watching her explore the world and be content just playing in her excersaucer, figuring it all out on her own. It's pretty remarkable to this mom.

 I can almost see the little wheels in your head turning as you learn new things.

So, while it might not have been (overwhelming, all-consuming) love at first sight, I'm definitely smitten now and can't imagine ever not being 110% in love with her and all her amazingness.

*Yes, I can recall our life without her. It was surprisingly easy and carefree. Would I want to go back? No. But, I can fondly remember the luxury of going out whenever and wherever we wanted.